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Listen Up

It took me twenty-five years

to feel what you planted

and how I wish that I had those years back

to feel confident

smart

loved

worthy

all the things you told me I wasn’t.

 

I didn’t know I had believed you

until I stopped.

When you told me I was nothing

worth nothing

knew nothing

deserved nothing,

my brain railed against it.

It threw wood at you,

defended me.

It yelled back,

even laughed.

I thought I had escaped.

Scotch free.

 

But,

turns out,

my heart believed you.

Sitting quietly at a table,

hands clasped,

looking at you with wide eyes,

then looking down.

 

You spoke the truth,

it knew it.

And I may spend the rest of my life

convincing it otherwise.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Saturdays at the Club

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The night you sat next to me
smelling of roses and old vinegar,
tapping the ashes off your
very long
cigarette
like it had done something to make you angry,
I was thinking about leaving you for good,

and running off to Brazil
where I know no one
and can’t speak the language,
where the skies burst with rain
and the earth smells like lavender.

But you said, “Let’s dance!”
with such spontaneous
delight
that I forgot to leave you,
forgot all about South America
until just now
when you lit that damn cigarette.

Originally published in Matter Journal, Volume 10: Village
2007
http://www.wolverinefarm.org/publications/matter-journal/